It’s been awhile since my last update post. This is because I took a break from social media in the fall, I participated in a very productive NaNoWriMo in November, and mostly because I’ve been reassessing my goals and exploring what I really want.
The question “What do I really want?” scares me sometimes. If it’s an emotionally easy task to accomplish, then I immediately tackle it. I’m not afraid of hard work or even failure, but I am afraid of hurting others and having regrets about that which I can never revisit. I realize this is a normal feeling, but it’s also one that I’ve felt so intensely for the past several months that I’ve been unable to think clearly. I haven’t been able to answer that question: “What do I want?”
I finally feel like I’m closer to that answer, which is a huge relief.
That said, I’ve been writing quite a bit, which is great because I spent the first half of 2019 in a creative drought. Now that I’ve escaped that drought, I see that it was an important transition period in my life. But that doesn’t make me feel any less irritated about it. 🙂
While I still have a lot of responsibilities, I’m doing much less than I was this time last year. This includes doing book reviews. While I still plan to continue review writing in the future, I’m going to first ensure that the books are in my interest areas. I’m also doing less events and for the first time in my life, it is nice to see empty evenings on my calendar! Given that I have multiple poetry drafts to edit, thanks to NaNoWriMo (I was a NaNo Rebel and did poems and short stories instead of a novel), this extra free time means that I can get them ready to submit to publishers soon.
I plan on posting again this month – it will probably be a January reading wrap-up, as I’ve already read a few great books this month!
- Current drink: diet citrus green tea
- Current book: Oculus by Sally Wen Mao
- Current audio/e-book: none
- Current music: Hotel Del Luna OST Piano Collection